I’m sure my very existence has left behind such a rabbit hole. I’ve always been left in constant self-reflection because people for some still-mysterious reason genuinely lay on me bigger burdens and less benefits that they lay on other people or that which fit in with their way of doing things outside of interactions with me. In all spheres of life, aside from a sense of reflection, all interactions are set up in such a way as to be able to be cited later, with or without hopes to shatter this barrier, and in return there’s just demoralization. If anyone were to remember a certain idea I had that is complained about for poor manifestation each time, people were harassing me everywhere for weeks about “communication” even though even AI said I was fine, this being the kind of thing some of us will attest affects outlook. And if you were to investigate context for everything I mentioned experiencing, with a lot of it leading to it, I would bet any mind flexible enough to understand would melt under the sheer chaos.