I think I’m extremely weird for this, and I try to explain it as good as possible.
See, whenever I do something I enjoy, be it designing something in CAD for fun, working out at home, watching a new show I enjoy, playing video games… it goes well as long as I’m completely alone. But as soon as someone even as little as encourages me, I loose all interest in this and stop doing it for some time until I am alone some weeks, months or even years later and I do it again, have fun for some days, and then someone finds out what I’m doing and I just stop it.
Is this normal? What is this called? Is there help?
Is it viable for you to get your own apartment and turn off yor phone?
Maybe once you experience isolation, you’ll find that you miss human interaction after all, or you are happy living alone.
Oh I don‘t miss human interaction most of the time. I’m living with a depressed ADHD partner in therapy that takes meds but as time goes on it’s just became a chore to keep her happy.