The title is really vague, so I’ll try to clarify my intentions here:
I am an ardent supporter of FOSS. It will be greatly beneficial for my life and especially my privacy to self-host such software. Yet, I cannot find much motivation to do so.
However, when it comes to hosting software for public use, I can usually give my utmost concentration and dedication.
This is not how I want my life to be. I want to be motivated for myself as well as for the community. And if that’s not possible, I need to trick my brain into bringing me into that kind of zone for myself.
What do I do? What would you do in this situation?
Isn’t feeling like that a good thing though? If you’re sufficiently miserable there’s a good chance you’ll actually get the work done. This also works if you feel embarrassed or feel that others depend on you, but in my case I’m going to have to depend on the former.