The older I get the more clear basically every facet of our society is to exploit us and fill us with propaganda.
The first thing that comes to mind when I wake up is how much I just hate being surround by this species that seems to want nothing more than to destroy itself.
Everything is a fucking joke and I’m fucking tired of everyone but I have a daughter.
I’m absolutely miserable and disgusted by basically everyone but I don’t have the luxury of being able to quit. I just long for death.
It’s my mom. Rest don’t care enough about me, won’t miss me.
Understandable and feels for all of that. Only reason I’m still alive is not because I fear death but I’m afraid of surviving it and living a even worse life by force. The Amerikkkan medical system is extremely hard on people who attempt it and don’t really care if you lost a arm or something, they will still treat you just as shit and probably worse. So yeah, it’s not about being afraid I might hurt others because I’m gone. I’m afraid I might hurt others because I survived it and they have to take more care of me because of it.
This. Its sorta hard to die in some ways in the modern world without taking a big risk of severely disabled survival.
Just like eating only junk food is bad for your body, so is current news bad for the mind. I suggest you seek out actually positive news channels on YouTube or smth. We live in a very shitty world but there is still so much good in it. There is free open source software out there, there is volunteer work, there are people who give time, money, energy to worthy causes, with nothing to gain. And that’s worth fighting for (Mr Frodo)!
Positive news? What like the “all of these employees gave up sick time to coworker” kinds of stories where you need to not ask the obvious questions to feel good about?
I’ve never experienced anything positive that was news worthy that I’m aware of.
Its not just news, its the little things. Local things. Kids hitting new milestones in learning. Beauty in nature, and in the hands of artists all around us. Different wondrous things being researched that are going to help the human race in the future. There is so much wonder and excitement in this life just waiting to be experienced, but most of these things are not easily monetized when reported.
Gratitude is a revolutionary act in times like these. Since you’re going to die, anyway, you might as well enjoy the ride as much as you can and teach your child to do the same. If you manage to make the world a better place along the way, then so much the better.
Peace.
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There is a way to make a lot of things better quickly, but it is quite violent
I used to feel more suicidal. Nowadays I think if I was feeling like I truly wanted to do that, I would want to take an oligarch with me
Weaponized depression; what is this world coming to?
If you do, at least pick carefully. I can just picture some guy shooting a real estate agent because he looks fancy.
We could use more of this feeling.
That’s a sad sentence. I feel sad typing it. I feel sad reflecting on the truth of it. I feel sad every second that I don’t see breaking news of Trump’s (and musk, and (insert every currently elected Republican name here) brutality-record-setting tortuous death.
I wish he could die more than once, just so different kind of pain could be inflicted on him each time.
So yeah, any of you out there that feel this way, please take a trump with you. Take an RFK with you. Take a Boebert with you. Something like that, take at least one.
That’s my current state as well: if I kill myself just like that, the ones in power won. So I’m not letting them win. Either by surviving or… your option.
You’re not alone in feeling this way for sure. I’m only still alive because I have older family members who would be devastated if I did anything to myself. Once they’re gone I can finally go too.
I love my family and want them to live happily, but like… Please don’t live to 100… I’m growing impatient lol
I’m glad you’re still here.
I actually seriously considered that thought for the first time the other day. Turns out hurting my family is a pretty good motivator to not off myself. It’s a double edged sword though because I also don’t do other things I want because I don’t want to hurt them or face their condemnation.
I’m glad you’re still here.
Thank you friend.
Whatever the reason is, I’m glad you’re still here.
I’m not suicidal and never have been, but I’ve certainly had dark thoughts. If I were ever pushed to that point, the pain I would inflict on those I care about would be the reason I couldn’t do it.
Been there, all depressed because of current state of the world, and learning that the “solutions” or “ways out” by the media are false or just delaying the inevitable/distractions, and judging from your comments you might be feeling the same thing.
However, if you do that, not only would your daughter suffer but the world would also lose someone truly radical in today’s society, someone who would truly sees past the ideology and propaganda we’re subjected to. If everyone like that were to off themselves or start heavily abusing substances as a tool of escapism, the world would never change and people with a future ahead of them like your daughter would be doomed for certain.
It’s important to cling onto hope - a better world is possible and you can be a part of building it, both individually but more importantly, collectively. Drop subtle hints in your conversations about what you think is wrong nowadays, who the real enemies you see are, plant the seeds in your colleagues and hope they’ll come to the same conclusions by themselves. If you see any resistance organizations aligned with your views politically, why not join them - after all, you’re not alone. Point is - there is still hope for change.
Though if it works and it does make you feel better, you can also start focusing on positive/good news, even though I’m skeptical it would work, pandora’s box and all. Maybe even seek counseling or therapy if you have access to it.
I’ve given up on hope. There’s too much money to be made off suffering.
I don’t know, there is no data about that
I felt that way for a while, then I found out those people didn’t care about me as much as I thought. I’ve been holding on to my anger at that to keep me going for a year now. I dunno what’ll happen once that burns out.
I am. I really do not like existing but I want to make sure my mother has someone who cares about them in their life still.
theoretically if my death would upset no one I’d be out tomorrow. I’m over the loneliness
