To get as close to my true self as possible.

Internally. Yes.

I’m hoping that assisted suicide will be a thing, but I have come up with a contingency plan if it’s not. The worst thing I can imagine is being stuck in a nursing home and not knowing what’s going on or be unable to do things for myself.

My life didn’t start until my 40s and so I’m really grateful to have the opportunity to discover myself and do the things that I want to do and not be tied down to the needs of others. It feels amazing.

I do want to add, I never wanted kids or get married. My childhood dream was to connect to my inner compass, be authentic and express myself freely. I am grateful to be able to actualize this.

Gym and dog parks.

Wow. I didn’t miss much… Is this the first drama of this kind?

I agree. At the root of it, people want to feel safe. This is a fundamental need. Religion does this for them because they don’t need to make decisions and they’re promised that if they follow it they will indeed be kept safe. Also spiritual bypass is awesome.

I use YouTube for instructions on how to do things. I can listen to podcasts anywhere.

Is there a reason to have one over the other?

Wefwef also has it.

Ditto. Exercising never feels good. I don’t like being sweaty and I don’t like moving around unless I’m going somewhere for a purpose. The only way I’m able to “enjoy” it is if I smoke weed before or numb out on a tv show/movie so that I can pretend I’m not exercising. And then after working out I’m exhausted and need a nap. The entire process sucks. I’ve never been into sports either. Or riding the bike or swimming. Yoga is tolerable, but it’s better when I’m high.

I have a picture of a cartoon cheerleader on my desk. She’s always cheering me on. It feels good to be encouraged and supported. I’ve been wanting to get a cheerleader Barbie for some time now but I haven’t found ones with normal sized heads.

I also have birthday candles and every once in a while I’ll buy a piece of cake and blow a candle out, to celebrate everything that I’ve done.

That’s awful. He deserves to be remembered. Thanks for posting. Are there shelters in place now in Canada?

the most interesting thing about this is the fact that “removed” is blurred out, but not “gay ass queer”. times have changed and i feel so fucking old.

e: til you can’t say it on lemmy.

… and rape and sexual assault and pedophile… some videos (like on cults) are really weird to watch cus so many words are bleeped out.