You’ve already got some good advice but in no particular order:

1. You are much more articulate than a lot of people. You can read and write better than a lot of people.

2. You’ve been at least emotionally and physically abused

3. You know how to work hard.

4. ADHD is somewhat treatable with medication, at least improvable.

What that translates to:

1. no it isn’t too late, especially if you keep working hard.

2. the things you blame yourself for likely isn’t your fault. Therapy, when you can afford it, should be a priority.

3. working hard is so important for employment. Most jobs don’t require high intelligence. Working hard with a good attitude and working with people is so much more important for most careers.

4. learning disabilities suck. ADHD is hard. You can still learn coping mechanisms and find ways or a career that fits better with it.

Life is hard. It’s harder for you than most. It can still be worth living, but it will be up to you to find a way. I think you can.

Neither one has a goatee though

If it makes you feel better they’re super shitty to their paying customers too.

I think I vehemently disagree with you on principle, but it’s a point I hadn’t thought of before, so thank you for pointing out that perspective.

Microsoft makes its money from business and enterprise customers. Home users are a drop in the bucket.

Money from home users is from stealing data.

https://rentry.co/megathread

That is a good place to start your journey.

Yeah, most people these days watch the colorized version, but it should really be appreciated in the original black and white.

He’s also fantastic in Rome, an older HBO show if you haven’t seen that one.