Hello,
I was feeling like I am mentally sick since 3-4 year. I often do unhinged things that doesn’t make any sense. I constantly imagine things that’s not the reality however I know it’s not reality but I still smile thinking about those imaginary stuff and also I get depressed thinking the imaginary stuff. I don’t hear any voice but I keep talking to people in my head. It’s difficult for me to sympathize to other people. I can’t even make any social connection because my brain will make some negative assumption toward that person who is actually a nice person.
I went to psychiatrist and he said I have schizophrenia and told that I need immediate treatment. he gave me 9 injections and medicines. I feel like I am scammed. I don’t know I feel the same before and after the treatment. It also cost a lot of money around 1000$. I am so frustrated and don’t know what to do.
any suggestions would be appreciated.
Edit: no, I didn’t take the treatment from the first psychiatrist. I went to other psychiatrist and he came to the same conclusion. I was so scared atm that I didn’t think much about it and went for the treatment.
You should listen to your medical professional.
Also, I think schizophrenia often comes with paranoia so it would make sense for you to distrust anyone including your psychiatrist.
Yes, and absolutely, No! If you’ve built a rapport with somebody, and you trust them, then yes listen to them. If you feel uncomfortable with them, then get a second (or third) opinion. If you’re ever unsure about why your doctor suggested something, ask them questions. If they wave you off or get offended, then maybe they don’t have your best interest at heart, and are more concerned for their pride.
The point is, you are your only advocate*. If you do not stand up for yourself, no one else will. It’s also important to note that your mind is yours alone. Only you know how you feel, what you think, and can make decisions based on your thoughts. Do your best to convey them to others as you can, but give yourself grace in that you can’t always make people understand you.
* There are always exceptions, and some people cannot advocate for themselves. In my non-medical opinion, OP doesn’t sound like someone who cannot advocate for themselves.