Since my previous post has been removed… I guess they don’t want that argument here.
My doesn’t feel worth living but I just can’t erase myself.
Please, just tell me about your life, don’t try to fix mine. I’m done.
Other people and art. I live to spend time with people and make things for them.
I once told myself i wish i could have my body split into energy to make people i love better off while i disappear.
Someone told me “thats imaginary if you are gone but real if you stick around and love those people”
No worries. No hopes saleman here.
Yeah, some days I feel like pressing a magic “instant permanent vanish” button.
At least I have a good partner in my life and on my new job I spend most of the day hyperfocused creating some scripts to make my tasks easier. I wish they would let me work remotely already tho, because I’m losing my shit after a month of full on-site work.
If I lose my partner, things may turn pretty dark, again.
Having a partner must be nice.
I was feeling something similar last year. I’ve been following Maslow’s motivational model since then and things have only improved.
Learning new things and helping other people learn new things.
Did you know the poems of Emily Dickinson can be read to the tune of the Yellow Rose of Texas?
https://shc.stanford.edu/arcade/interventions/my-life-withstood-yellow-rose
Regarded now as one of the most important American poets, only 10 of her 1,800 poems were published in her lifetime.
There’s things to learn that I don’t know yet. That’s enough for me.
Well, I just bought a new motorcycle. Going to pick it up later and do some riding. That makes things worth living.
What did you get, internet stranger?
It’s easy enough at the moment, but that’s basically it.
