I’ve recently had to start hormone replacement. Apparently my T levels were so low I was getting clinically depressed. So I went from half the minimum testosterone levels to slightly above the maximum. Now, I’ve always had a weirdly high libido, and I was afraid I’d have to turn into a recluse. In fact, the opposite happened. I had barely any libido left. I’d jerk off just to test if things even worked, and everything was fine, but it was like I was in constant post-nut clarity. I hated it. I didn’t feel myself anymore, and having focus and clarity while all this shit is happening in the world… Like, the hormones did help with the depression a little bit, but it was offset by the otherness I am feeling.
Anyway, this rambling is my way to relate, in a way. You went through puberty of sorts, and I’m going through a reverse one. I am having to get to know myself again, unsure as to what is happening to my body, and dealing with the occasional zit.
BTW, Instead of injecting T, the doctor attempted (successfully!) to kickstart my internal production with a drug that stimulates FSH production, which, in XY equipped hardware, boosts testosterone production. AMAB bodies normally deal with excess T by converting it to estrogen. To avoid that, another drug that blocked it was added. I found it curious how the same messengers are used by both sexes, sometimes with the same outcome, sometimes with completely different outcomes.
I’ve recently had to start hormone replacement. Apparently my T levels were so low I was getting clinically depressed. So I went from half the minimum testosterone levels to slightly above the maximum. Now, I’ve always had a weirdly high libido, and I was afraid I’d have to turn into a recluse. In fact, the opposite happened. I had barely any libido left. I’d jerk off just to test if things even worked, and everything was fine, but it was like I was in constant post-nut clarity. I hated it. I didn’t feel myself anymore, and having focus and clarity while all this shit is happening in the world… Like, the hormones did help with the depression a little bit, but it was offset by the otherness I am feeling.
Anyway, this rambling is my way to relate, in a way. You went through puberty of sorts, and I’m going through a reverse one. I am having to get to know myself again, unsure as to what is happening to my body, and dealing with the occasional zit.
BTW, Instead of injecting T, the doctor attempted (successfully!) to kickstart my internal production with a drug that stimulates FSH production, which, in XY equipped hardware, boosts testosterone production. AMAB bodies normally deal with excess T by converting it to estrogen. To avoid that, another drug that blocked it was added. I found it curious how the same messengers are used by both sexes, sometimes with the same outcome, sometimes with completely different outcomes.