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Okay, but it does look good. I don’t even know if there’s ice in there, but it looks crisp.

I was a kid, I wanna say fifth grade? Anyway, I had to wake up at the crack of dawn to drive to my dad’s mom’s house. I hated both that woman and the house. We made it there around ten or so. Then my dad excused himself, like, a hour after we arrived, leaving my mom and me with his mom, who hated us both in equal measure for ruining her son’s life.

He didn’t come back until well past midnight.

I had fallen asleep in the couch and woke up to the fight in the living room. My mother was devastated, and hurt that he left us (he was our ride home), and that it was for drugs or whatever hood shit he was up to. Even after we packed up in the car, he made a pit stop to pick up some drugs for the road and my mother was sobbing in the car. I was trying to comfort but I made it worse, so I just held her hand from the back seat.

They screamed and fought in the car for nearly an hour. I was terrified he was going to pull us into traffic because he was getting so angry. We ended up pulling over and my mom sobbed in the gas station parking lot, screaming at him to just give a fuck. He walked off to smoke and I was able to calm my my down because she could see I was freaking out and she loved me more than she hated him and calmed herself down in my behalf.

The ride home was silent. We got home and it was nearly dawn. My mom made me a snack and then sent me to bed. I didn’t fall asleep for a few hours because I was worried he would do something to my mom. When I was sure he was out, I went to sleep.

Highlight: They got me an Enya CD (don’t judge me) so the initial ride there was actually quite nice. My mom was actually very excited that morning. She was excited to have a family Christmas.

I take regular hour walks. They can help, but please still take your medication if you’re on anything. And don’t feel bad if it doesn’t change your life. Sometimes you just walk to clear your head, and that’s still okay.

Oh, me, me! I’m based in the US, but here are a few 🤗

• It’s harder for us to get loans for businesses. Most financial services are either harder or more expensive (Ex: You live in the hood and want to start a business, the area you’re in is “coded” a certain way, and you get higher loan rates because they assume you to be more risky by default)
• A lot of POC are behind in generational wealth/security because they were barred from communities and businesses that could have been passed down
• We are paid less
• Neighborhoods with high POC population usually get less funding
• Less political power because of how the counties were purposely broken up, so our voices aren’t heard as loudly
• Racial profiling
• We are more likely to get arrested, and serve harsher sentences
• Until recently (and still in some places), natural kinky hair had to be “fixed.”
• Colorism
• People with heavy accents (not limited to Hispanics of course) can have a harder time at jobs, especially if they’re phone base as people can be mad disrespectful
• In our current political environment, Latin Americans are the target of a lot of vitriol, illegal or not
• I can’t speak for Latin Americans, but when traveling, Black people have to worry about different things like: Are they racist? If so, how much? Will they let me in businesses? If I’m going for work, will they let me? If I’m not rich, will I still be treated well? We can’t just go back packing, because many countries will not be hospitable, either due to race, skin color, or both
• Being spoken too in slang because they assume that’s how you talk
• For hobbies, cosplay. POC are routinely dragged for not being the right color or what have you
• For kids, they are seen as older and more dangerous than other non-POC their age and therefore are treated harsher
• “Don’t send no Mexicans to my house” - Actual customer
• Even if you get a job, you may be taken off a job because of your skin (there are plenty of stories of people who refuse POC doctors, nurses, etc. I personally was not able to teach a child when abroad because of my skin color, even though I was the only one with a degree).
• Having your name, apperence, hair style mocked, until it’s been absorbed by white culture and becomes “cool.”
• Having your accolades covered up or ignored (A modern example would be that Renegade dance. The creator was a black girl, but a white girl took off with it. They even had her teaching a dance she didn’t create)
• If a show or movie has a POC in it, you have to brace yourself for cries of “wokeness,” even before the movie is out
• Being assumed as a diversity hire, regardless of your cardentials
• Something a bit more basic, but make up, hair products, etc. A lot of viral trends are shown on pale skin only, and some popular products don’t make darker colors at all, or very few shades. It wasn’t until I was in high school that I could find my regular hair products outside of a beauty supply shop.
• POC women and girls are hyper sexualized and are often see as the cause for physical and sexual abuse instead of the victim
• “You speak so well.”
• “Are you the first person in your family to finish highschool/college?”
• Being the only black kid on the class when they start the slavery lessons.
• “Don’t you speak English!?”
• For black women, we are routinely mocked not just outside our race, but inside. Many black men don’t fuck with black women because they drank the kool-aid
• Having to regulate your feelings because you don’t want to be the “angry” black person
• “Oh, I didn’t meant you. You’re one of the good ones.”

Of course, these have different levels of severity, some of these are not just applicable to POC, but this was a sampler of you will. Hope that helps!

Easier, not easy.

Yellow curry paste - About a year. I kept it well sealed. Never had issues.

Bread - my current loaf was “best. By 11/20.” There’s no mold and I’ve continued to have my slice with no issues. I store my bread in the fridge.

Chicken - I freeze chicken and will pull out a piece to defrost. I’ve pulled out some truly ancient chicken before. Still cooked up fine.

Furikake - I just ignore the expiration to be honest. I use it until I’m out, which can be months if not a year. But it’s just rice seasoning so I don’t think he could do much damage anyway.

• Maxing out my credit card
• Quitting my job and running away to another country
• Finding a rando to give my V-card to so I can see what all the fuss is about
• Ending it all
• Getting another cat

He’s right. It’s heroic. 👑

I’ve walked around with blue hands for awhile for similar reasons 😂

That’s very true! That’s why people are still out there having fun while I’m bitching on the internet 😂

Nah, not at all. I love cosplay and the media that comes with it. I’m sure she dressed up, but I just think dying your self green for a movie seen in the dark is crazy. Not that she deserves to be the green giant for it.

But I also don’t leave the house 😅

Dying yourself for the premiere of a movie you’re not even in is wild to me.

It doesn’t matter what the stats are, it’s insanely rude.

Missing the classic, “You speak so well!” Like, wtf, did you expect me to speak in pure jive and clicks???

To each their own! I enjoyed playing as

But I’m glad you like the other playthroughs!

I love Nier! I’m thought the second play through would be a slog, but they kept it really interesting imo. And starting it up for a third time was wild. Even starting that game is part of the game mechanic, it’s so neat!

Unfortunately, no. You can’t even get rid of that debt with bankruptcy. I have the same government loans. You can apply for forbearance to at least protect your score a bit if you can’t pay.

Start paying, even if it’s minimum payments.

You want to be in good standing (if you aren’t already) before the changing of the guards. They will garnish your wages, and it’ll be worse than whatever you were gonna pay. It’ll so fuck up your credit. Check the interest and see if you can at least start tackling that if it’s not too egregious. Republicans are securely on the side of the loan companies and there a chance they’ll let them loose with the right bribe or two, and it make get worse before it gets any better.

Go on a older person’s phone. Whenever I have to do anything on my mom’s phone, it gives me a headache. Everything is too bright and big and unorganized and has so man notifications! And her phone is much newer than mine and it’s still hard for me.