One thing I’ve learned about ADHD is that since we can’t control our thinking, we are each so divergent from the typical experience that we have little in common even with one another aside from common symptoms and the obvious reaction to those symptoms. My experience is not at all to invalidate anyone else’s experience. That being said, it’s very likely that the reason you are with your wife is at least partly due to how she is, and how she is is heavily influenced by her adhd. There are likely things you love about your wife that are directly influenced by her adhd or her life experience living with adhd.

Not a superpower. Thinking all moments of every single day, although exhausting, does make one significantly more experienced with thinking and how their mind works than those who can choose not to think most of the time though if untempered these thoughts are typically nonsense. It’s an advantage in many situations to be able to think at light speed while everyone else is panicking, but the burnout that comes from not being able to ever turn it off is pretty nasty. It’s different with different advantages and disadvantages. I personally wouldn’t change my mind to be different, but I wouldn’t recommend a mind like mine to someone who wouldn’t be able to handle it since I’m barely able to handle it myself with decades of experience.

Capitalists will say that it’s fine for an economy to have a few capitalists own all capital and all physical and intellectual property while common people are only allowed to rent it from the capitalists at whatever rate the capitalist pleases. However, capitalists will also say that the evil of socialism is that you won’t be allowed to own property. That’s the most capitalist thing I’m aware of.

All my exes are from Side 3

Being born to narcissistic parents was extremely controversial in my childhood home. I was the selfish little ingrate in the house who kept asking for things even though they already provided a house and food most of the time, and that was very polarizing for my parents.

This I think is wishful thinking. If they already made the trade and profited, they’re not going to care about the people scooping according to what they did. If the followers-on like me overinflate or kill the asset depending on what the cheater did all it would do is damage the economy. If you are in a position of aristocratic privilege such that insider trading is possible for you, destroying the economy is an opportunity to acquire assets at a bargain.

The difference is that on most days people would need to hide their inside trades. One day a year it would all be out in the open because nothing could happen to anyone. It would wreck the economy and collect wealth in the hands of those who already have it, but if you ride the corruption wave you may not end up among the have-nots.

It the best day of the year to get rich from the imaginary economy of assets. Set a bot to match the trades of some people who will be insider trading and cash in every year.

Cars are going to have an advantage over pedestrians most of the time.

I think when people are afraid and confused they tend to depend on narcissistic psychopaths to do their thinking for them. That’s the part that’s nature. The reason so many people are afraid and confused is because we are trying to live in a highly unnatural way in a world guided primarily by narcissistic psychopaths whose only concern is to outdo the other narcissistic psychopaths in the world using their people as a resource toward that end. Religion is one of uncountable tools in this dynamic. Removing it would disempower some narcissistic psychopaths and create opportunities for other narcissistic psychopaths. Afraid and confused people want the assurance from the narcissistic psychopaths regardless of whether religion is an option.

Whenever I hear this I always feel it takes a lot more guts to understand why not to but continue to choose to live anyway. Death is a comforting certainty while living is the way we know it to be. Hope you and I will be able to feel differently and be more comfotable with the idea of continuing through this world.

I’m intending to build a more frequently enjoyable life. I may have to do some surgery before I’ll be able to forget things in the moment though.

This is actually my primary motivation. I have some morbid curiosity about what we’re going to do to ourselves next.

I’m here too and in my case I’m damn sure it’s something other than cowardice. I know I’d sacrifice myself in less than a second given the opportunity and I even know how I would, but I haven’t. There’s a reason we’re still around even if we don’t know it consciously.

Thanks for the reminder. I’ll make sure they know my body belongs in the trash can (in a few decades).

I’ll be getting a dog soon. Thanks for this, it’s too easy to forget how cool dogs are when you don’t have one.

I feel you on this. I often feel I’m living for pure spite.

I’ve always felt that my note would make anyone who read it glad that they no longer have to deal with someone as indignant and sanctimonious as I am. The fact that most would react to need this way is part of my reasoning against continuing in this world, but in spite of the failings of my species I like other people regardless whether they’re safe or not. I’d like to see what happens for my personal interest, but I completely understand anyone who wouldn’t be able to tolerate this life at all.

I’m not sure whether I’m too stupid one way or the other, but at least I know I’m stupid.

Cheers, mate.